It's been a long time since my last journal entry. Much has happened and I am going to give my updates over the next couple entries.
The last couple weeks signaled the arrival of summer. That brought 115-118 degree weather, along with high humidity. When the heat first arrived, it turned the dorm where I live into a sauna. Nighttime did nothing to alleviate the sweltering heat and humidity.
The worst side effect I suffered from the change in the climate was my inability to sleep at night. For almost a month, it was impossible for me to sleep after the sun set. Even when the weather cooled down a bit and the dorm was no longer like an oven, my sleep schedule was so off kilter that I still was unable to sleep at night.
After the first couple of weeks, it seemed like I was perpetually tired. As my friends and family can attest, I can tend to be grumpy when I first wake up or when I am very tired! I started getting very frustrated and the days seemed almost painful to me.
Today will mark the 4th day in a row that I have SLEPT all the way through the night!! AND I did not take any naps during the day! To say I feel like a million dollars would be an understatement! I have been praying for months for the ability to follow the scriptures council to get up early and go to bed early. I have always read that great blessings are promised to those who would follow that council.
I have struggled my whole life with "morning phobia." It seemed that no matter what I did I could not get up before 8-9 AM and I could not fall asleep before 1 AM. I, now, can see the Lord's hand in those three weeks of sleepless hell and I am, now, enjoying the benefits of His blessings. The Lord works in mysterious ways. I will be sure to be more grateful in the future for some of the difficult challenges that are sure to surface.
I still remember laying there all night long, praying that I could sleep. I was so tired. It became painful to be awake. Now my joy is truly equal to the sorrow I experienced. Just another example of how the amount of joy we can experience is directly related to the amount of sorrow we have endured.
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